I wonder if you still blame me

My heart hurts 

a nagging worry in my mind 

this is not a blog for those that have triggers please bear that in mind 

So Christmas is Here ....

So after weeks and moth of planning the big day is almost here ....

Our ever expanding family

There was a time when every baby I saw or cuddled would make me so broody even though I have 4 children already another one would have been lovely I used to say even though I knew I was never going to have anymore.