Screw MS its pissing me off !!!!

Today has been one of those days where my mind, body and energy have all had differing ideas

of how the day will go ! 

Making plans to do something is a thing of the past 

I now live my life day to day , hour to hour it is the only way I can cope with things

In past years I would make plans and my body would make me have to change them 

Before my diagnosis I felt like a walking medical conundrum 

skin problems 

bowel problems 

headaches

migraines 

 osteo arthritis 

tremors

weakness

fatigue 

insomnia 

pain so much pain 

PTSD

depression 

ohhh the list was endless.

These days there is a name for whats wrong with me.

 On the outside I look fine

yes I am in a wheelchair and boy do I get some strange looks! 

 I have had people say oh my so & so has MS they can walk and they do this that and everything 

or they have good days and bad but they are not like you 

In all honesty what do people actually know?????

I have MS and I don't fully understand what it does to the body and why! 

Why me ? what did I do to be like this ?? 

Put 50 MS sufferers in a room and no 2 people in that room will have the exact same symptoms of MS 

I cant get my head round it, 

I hurt, I'm tired and my brain won't stop !

MS I HATE YOU ! 

I would like a day off please just so I can rest 

and get into perspective the highs and lows 

make my peace with the life I now live

MS you are pissing me off 

but I accept you a part of my life and you will make me mad 

you piss me off 

grind me down 

BUT ...........

YOU WILL NEVER BEAT ME !!