New beginnings and all that shizzle........

Well its been a while since I last posted 

and soooooooo much has happened !!! 

Some things are good some things bad somethings well lets see what you think
.......

Breaking the mould .....

There are times in life when doing something you have tried to avoid for over 

20+ years is the only way to move forward in life.

The moment I realised that if I wanted things to change 

to get better ........

I dreaded the fact that I had to break the continual circle my life has been taking.......

Mother- in- laws

how often have you heard both men and women moaning about their mother in laws ? 

How many people do you hear singing the praises of their Mother in laws ?

I can pretty honestly say I very rarely hear good things about other peoples mother in laws 

so why write this blog ?

well read on 

I wonder if you still blame me

My heart hurts 

a nagging worry in my mind 

this is not a blog for those that have triggers please bear that in mind 

AGHHHHH make my head stop

If there was ever a time my life felt normal I would love to remember when .. 

My earliest memories are not the most pleasant,

my late teens were an alcohol fueled chaos 

my  early 20's saw the birth of my children but also a very unhappy marriage 

which had many lows and not very many highs.

When I met my current husband the years of damage caused by others 

has made everyday life lets just say a little tricky.

Now in my last few months of my 30's I can't help but wonder was I always destined to feel like this. 

I often joke that I would hate to be normal but in actual fact I would love to have some resemblance of 

what most would call a normal life.

keeping up with the girls ... school holidays and MS

Sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

now that I got my last blog off my chest 

Here is the blog that I have been working on since last week, 

Its funny because this one has taken me over a week to perfect but the one before this I typed up in an hour 

go figure !

Some things just baffle me .......... ok I am moaning

I have never been one to profess that I understand the human mind and believe that to the best part it is a case of each to their own. We all have our own way of dealing with things and if it helps and causes no harm to others or yourself then all is good.

Thinking about the things my daughters have said and having a giggle

I was sitting thinking to myself about the things my girls have said 

and having a good chuckle about some of them 

so I thought I would share 

it can be a lonely world at times......... looking at the world through my eyes

looking at the world through my eyes 

a world that seems to divide

Living with MS .......... its harder than you think

Its been a week of ups and downs for me, 

but the hardest part is never knowing 

if the next day will be a good bad or indifferent day ! 

My heart goes out to many of my friends and fellow MS sufferers and their families. 

I know I have it easy compared to some and worse than others 

but the we all have one thing more than the MS in common ................................

Tin foil roses a tutorial ....... finally

Simple Stunning and Sparkly 

all the things this lady likes

This Tutorial is just from me doing my thing I'm no teacher neither am I trained to do these things 

I am a crafter ! and I have learnt how to do these things by research and trial and error 

I just thought I would share my way of doing these fab roses with you. 

Lets Get Back On Track

As some of you may have guessed I have a bit of a passion for all things sparkly.
For years I trained to be a nail technician and beautician and always involved my hobbies in this work. 

My love of sparkle and all things pretty grew and evolved itself over the years and my nail art became well known locally, then live threw a spanner in the works and I went into the wheelchair it was at this time I felt that I could no longer carry on doing what I had been doing. I had to give up my day job (a unit organiser for Ann Summers) as well as my part time job as a nail tech and beautician. I had never seen a disabled nail tech or beautician and this led to me taking my hobbies blinging and jewellery making and making a business out of them which I love but I felt part of me was missing I continued to do close families and friends nails etc but my nail art began to loose its panache my feeling of loss showed in my work!

one step forward five steps back but I cant step I only roll but that just don't sound the same

Its been one of those weeks and its only Wednesday !!

Random Acts of Kindness

There are not many times that I can honestly say I am lost for words. 

How ever Saturday I was and I believe that the 2 young ladies I was with were as well. 

Screw MS its pissing me off !!!!

Today has been one of those days where my mind, body and energy have all had differing ideas

of how the day will go ! 

wakey wakey

After being awake until gone 4 this morning I was not surprised that waking this morning at 6:30 was lets say a little bit of a struggle !

I was however shocked that I must have been dreaming when I was woken I'm pretty sure that for many this would not be an unusual occurrence (dreaming that is..) 

However for me it is a big /HUGE thing I was dreaming .... a slightly strange dream granted but it was a dream not a nightmare not a vivid recollection of past events but a dream of strange events never been had or likely to ever happen. 

This would not cheer most people up but for me it is a massive step forward. 

I feel more invigorated than I would normally

Definitely more positive

and 100% less upset than I do most mornings 

Please please let this be a sign of things to come ... 

Kayla 

     xXx

Making a start on a new craft project

When it comes to crafts I like to stay well within my comfort zone 

and ensure that I am able to do the task I set myself. 

I push myself every time I work on something I do not cut corners ever 

and I always want to make something that will last the test of time. 

My work is my legacy so to speak. 

A whole world at your finger tips ..........

The world as I once knew it changed when the internet truly found its feet. 

New Year New Beginnings

Happy New Year 2014 !!!

The new year is a time for new starts,

 resolutions,

and the post christmas removal of the crimbo decs