New beginnings and all that shizzle........

Well its been a while since I last posted 

and soooooooo much has happened !!! 

Some things are good some things bad somethings well lets see what you think
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Breaking the mould .....

There are times in life when doing something you have tried to avoid for over 

20+ years is the only way to move forward in life.

The moment I realised that if I wanted things to change 

to get better ........

I dreaded the fact that I had to break the continual circle my life has been taking.......

Mother- in- laws

how often have you heard both men and women moaning about their mother in laws ? 

How many people do you hear singing the praises of their Mother in laws ?

I can pretty honestly say I very rarely hear good things about other peoples mother in laws 

so why write this blog ?

well read on 

I wonder if you still blame me

My heart hurts 

a nagging worry in my mind 

this is not a blog for those that have triggers please bear that in mind 

AGHHHHH make my head stop

If there was ever a time my life felt normal I would love to remember when .. 

My earliest memories are not the most pleasant,

my late teens were an alcohol fueled chaos 

my  early 20's saw the birth of my children but also a very unhappy marriage 

which had many lows and not very many highs.

When I met my current husband the years of damage caused by others 

has made everyday life lets just say a little tricky.

Now in my last few months of my 30's I can't help but wonder was I always destined to feel like this. 

I often joke that I would hate to be normal but in actual fact I would love to have some resemblance of 

what most would call a normal life.